I was driving to work one morning and I was praying. This is not an unusual event of multi-tasking for me. But as I was praying, beseeching the Almighty for the events of the day, I was overwhelmed with a weight at what I was saying. The words I was saying were those of a "user". Now for those who know me, my personality is that of a persuader...I can talk my way through almost anything...something which has consistently gotten me into trouble. But here is was...trying to get God to take my agenda and bless it...I was deeply aware of my intent on "using" God to accomplish my goals. Stop the boat! (actually it was a Ford Explorer). Was I actually so twisted that I thought I could get by with setting the agenda and then invoking the blessing of God (don't answer that...) Yes...for a moment, I was that twisted. And I stopped short my prayer of manipulation, confessed, and once again talked honestly with my Papa. Man, the things I am capable of...my heart is really deceitful. Lord, today...please guide the desires of my heart to those of Yours. Soli Deo Gloria!
P.S. Please pray for my friend, my brother Eric. He had surgery a couple of weeks ago and is having a battle for recovery.
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Hey Kevin and Rita- for some reason God laid you both on my heart- and i stopped and smiled thinking of our visit in June. I also prayed- not sure what God is doing in your lives right now. And hey Kevin: I have not called myself a "user" but now that you said that I find myself praying like that too often..kind of telling God what to do. love you guys! missin you all terribly!
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